Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
x lettin go of the feelings i hv for HIM
yea..i guess its really tm to let go..i'll stop tokin bout the feelins i hv for him and go on wif life?can i do it?am i able to do it?how can i do it?yea, charity told me to get over him...altho i really feel he's really a good catch..tts wat attaracted me..he's one faithful guy..and i just love the way he is...the way he toks and all..bt,i guess..we 2 are only suited to b just frends huhs?... *u're the only cat im not afraid of..well..i tink u noe it quite sumtm back tt i've fallen for u?gee.. i noe i've been rejected..i guess i shud let the feelings go..ya..altho i really hate to do it..bt i hv to..rites?yeps...dun worry..i'll try and keep to my words..and all the best to u and the gal of ur dreams.. =D..hope she'll appreciate u as much as u appreciate her..and realise u're the one for her?hahas.. frends forever.. anyways..i've gt the shoes we saw earlier in jan..yeps.. its really nice..ahhas..cuz im wearin mahs!!hahas.. wnet ther just now..and was like lookin ard for it..cuz i really cant remb wher was the shop...*im not kuku kaes..at least i remb it was in fareast..hahs..
x quittin my job at SG
hmm...well i tink its oso tm le..hahas..tt tm still tot of stayin till he cums back..bt now..hahas..im damn fucked up wif nurul and wan(sumtms lahs..)..well,she's a bitch of all tm..and i just hate the sickenin freak face of hers..despo..and she'd irriatin..braggart.. callin her stupid WUD be and INSULT to stupid people... mite join charity and co. at banquet sometm later..yeps,which has better pay than SG..and more new friends..yeps.. which oso means more allowance! bt im not sure if i wanna give up the frends i've made over the 2mths in SG..ppl like evelyn..dianah, shawn, lydia.. shikin.. zul,qirong and last of all kit..my bro...hahas..shud i?haix..still in consideration..
[im still who i used to b.. ther's no doubt bout it..]
let your heart out.
then aft eatin went to collect my new specs..!love it so much..coz its better than the old one..lols.. look out for the new me!lols... collect in bedok...and saw sum BDS ppl..was tryin my luck to look fro the guys...bt guess i was down wif lucks..hahas... walked past giodano..and gerry showed us her ex-sklmate...my god...he's very charmin...and i tink he noes we're lookin at him lohs!lols.. hahas..tt gerry like so xcited over him like tt...hahas.. headed to the library to look for sum books... (a child called it) and books on programmin...well, nt xcatly books tt i want...they're for gerry & jasper de...and we saw sum pyss guys...handsum sumore siax!lols.. kinda reminded me of aloy & gang...hahas..met up wif sheryl,charity & danial for movie at Tm..bt b4 tt went to the arcade b4 the show... me & gerry played daytona...yesh..and i lost again lohs!cant believe my lucks...was supposed to win..bt still lose lohs..hahas..played table-hockey..and i oso lose...-_-" diaos...im so like a loser lohs!hahas... watched hide & seek..was such a fabulous show..and i've got to admit..tis show IS scary..!sat between gerry & charity..and charity was like coverin her face halfway thruout the show..hahas..
got home..and calculated how much i wud probably get for tis mth..then plannins to get my off-daes..hahas..watch the vcd i burrowed frm gimkai's sis..*qian nu you hun*.. watched till cd4..then forced to off it..arghs...!so sickenin lohs..and i was like halfway tru the show!!hmpf... fri gettin results liaos...oh no..i dun noe can do well nots..so scared & xcited at the same tm lohs..wahs...cant describe my feelins now!!my god..save me frm tis agony..hahas..
+lovE othErs,EvEn though thEy may nt rEturn it+ ya...tis is like so meaningful..hahas..love it... *copy-rited frm khairul..* hahas... well..about to give up le..the more i read his blog..the more...helpless i get..all he need is encouragement frm the gal..i dun even dare to msg him noe...let alone tok to him online.. mayb i shud stay by this eulogy.. ** love others, even tho they may nt return it..
ciaos...gotta stop here...tml goin for a job interview as an usher...better pay sumore lohs!!hahas then hopefully can get my shoes!hehes..
let your heart out.
went to interchange wif charity..gerry..ee woon & mitch...then went our own way aft tt...he took 67..and me...65...now then i noe 67 exsisted in tamp interchange..felt so kuku!hahas...bt i really feel bad..i mean i dun noe..and tis is wat i feel...he's kinda irritated...mayb due to the fact tt he gots lots of injuries todae & he's not hvin enuff slp?! *heys!i didnt hv enuff slp either!... mayb he shudnt hv cum down..bt...nvm lahs..
well..tml will b a better dae?hahas..goin to weisiang's hse...then to gim kai's hse for cyn visitin.. yay!tt means gettin angbaos again..im like so broke now... coz of ytd..spent so much money!ard 15bucks like tt...ard ther lahs.. me..lydia..shikin..farhan...shawn...all ended work at 5pm..and we went jalan-jalan... 1st went to gelare to eat ice-cream..made alot of noise lohs..practically ALL of us were damn lame...doin stupid stuff...and luffin at gossips..the walked ard TM...went to eastzone to play daytona..*as usual..i was last!!hahas..shawn was 1st..followed by lydia..farhan..and me.. muahahahas.. aft tt we went to the funfair outside TM,near the bustop lahs...the price of the rides were like so ex!! made a detour to the pasar malam...then we walked all e way to CS...shopped again...me & lydia bought earrins...hahas...went to shops tt were for gerls...then shawn was like..*wah laos..nt again.. we made fun of shawn..sayin *ay..shikin likes tis..shikin likes tt...and he 'kok' my head!lols... we accompanied shawn to get paparoti..and we were ogglin at the handsum staff ther..he looks so cute!especially when he smiles...hehes
chattin wif jasper now...hahs..decidin wher to hv breakfast b4 meetin gerry to go weisiang's hse...kaes..gotta ciaos to dream land le..*yawns*...
*silently..i'll b here prayin, tt everything will b fine for u.. (in sch..trainins..wateva u do) ... cheer ups..i really miss the old u.. the jokes and ur lame-ness... haix.. just the old u... * tis isnt too much to expect frm u rites?
let your heart out.
was rather busy in the mornin..doin runner job again.then evenin..i did buffet...totally shit...!i felt damn fucked up wif myself...so many ppl had to help me wif the bloody job...kit..shikin..lydia..rifhan.. arghs...damn shyt...feel so ashamed...and useless...sorry ppl...had to trouble u guys... evelyn came to makan wif her classmates..her bf was ther too..oh no..trust her to sae her bf's cute and handsum..diaos...still sae my taste was bad when she heard i like TT guy...sayin negative stuff bout his looks and all...comparin her bf to HIM...i tink HE'S much better lookin!...HE's got the heights..the body..and i just love the way he talks..haix...bt who cares?dun even tink he bother to read my blog...jerk..
work ended early...reached home at 11.05pm...so early!hahas..so am here to blog early!well..he isnt online...guess he's slpin...coz he had a tired dae??*tts if my assumption correct... one-sided love...wats tt...can sumone tell me the true meanin of love?am i supposed to love him more..?or wats?sucks..
\\..tell me wats love all about..//
let your heart out.
then i spilled a pitcher of tom-yam soup in the chiller...there wasnt enuff space and i acted smart by tryin to stack one pitcher over another..then.. *ya..u shud noe wat happen lahs...spent an entire 10mins cleanin up the mess... the whole bottom chiller smelled of tomyam..hahas.. had staff meal aft tt...nurul cooked staff meal at 10plus...coz we were SO..SO hungry!i had spinach noodles again...hahas...so did nurul..*eeee!copycat sia..and her jokes were so cold..i almost had sumone to pass me a blankie!damn lame...and i had to force myself to luff about her "triple service charge!" initially me and iris cudnt get her joke at all lohs...and she had to xplain to us like ard 4 tms? even filiana was givin us the...*wat-the-look!hahas...and she tot it was funny..
oh yah...and since my wallet's filled now...lols...decided to get myself new earrings again!! another new pair to add to my collection..bt..my fave diamond earring's missin!!so is the neon orange cross earring...i've no idea wher i left them..can only remb the last tm i took them off when i chaged them into the feathery earrings...then now they're missin...!*sobs... hope i can find them..whereva they are...kaes..loggin off now...workin at 12..ciaos! =D
let your heart out.
went for band..and spent my most ROMANTIC date wif the sec1 juniors..i was in charged of the saxophonist...5 of them...ya..elvina was damn adorable...very cute gerl..the way she toks...kinda reminded me of sumone..ya..no other than myself...lao pa accused me of teachin her those stuff..like answerin back...and all..*im innoncence hors!... taught them marchin and b4 tt was learnin to playin on the mouth piece and the tunin barrel..marchin was so-so..made them run..and they complained wif*huhs?!...its all part of the trainin isnt?we've all been thru tt...nth new wats..thers more to cum anyways... well the alumin mite b takin part in NDP 05 wif the band tis yr..hopefully we can..and hopefully we do...mite just make the decicion of quittin SG on the spot...i dun care if he mite oso return to work wif me aft the O's tis yr..im just so..heartbroken?guess so...and if we are really goin to take part...band wud be my 1st piority...im sorry to sae tt...bt yes..it it wud b band, it was once my 1st piority..and it will be my 1st piority...
hvin a mini performance behind skl on the 19feb..which is tis cumin saturdae...shud b lahs..it'll b at the carpark of evergreen circle..the old folks apartment blks...*to the YOU.if u're readin,hope u'll be ther...just wanna hv a glimpse of u..guess it wud b totally impossible lahs...*omg,y am i still botherin to sae all tis?mayb im just over-reactin... anyaways..i've oso told u b4 bout the performance...ya..to go or not to go..up to u.. *kaes back to my blog...enuff of private messagin..dun even noe he will bother to read nots.. the alumin will b playin chi new yr songs & cant take my eyes off u...and it will be wif the help of the main band...coz the alumin is way too small...ya..hope i'll b a success...coz the last practice was atrocious! side-readin was bad..and playin was...shit?hahas...
im startin to give up once again..when we 1st got to noe each other..we msged..tok online...we still do it now..bt the feelins different..he seems kinda not interested in msgin..replyin wif the sianx attitude...tokin the not-so-his-way...i noe it coz its the way i feel...sumbody pls tell me im really over-reactin..!the feelin of one-sided love is very...i dun noe how to sae...haix... tts wat jasper tells me...and i noe how's he feelin now...trust me...u're not me..so u wun understand... i noe he,himself hv oso been thru tt...so he shud noe better?wateva..
let your heart out.
*currently listenin to picture of u...by boyzone...hahs..love it..=D
let your heart out.
awww....last dae in indo..their airport...damn unique!hahas...
let your heart out.
my aunt & me!
estheR
let your heart out.
liung & me...*he's actually teachin me how to play the fireworks lohs..hahas
let your heart out.
playin wif fireworks..=D
let your heart out.
me! *lols
let your heart out.
enjoyin myself...!*
let your heart out.
still playin...hahs
let your heart out.
on da beach...wif liung..hahas...kinda bored ther..so i decided to retrive backed sum childhood memories! Xp
let your heart out.
me again...hahas.*checkin out the hotel..and enjoyin myself wif the welcum drink..hahs..
let your heart out.
it was real fun..lols...
let your heart out.
big bubble!!lols =D
let your heart out.
retrivin another childhood memory of mine..hahahs
let your heart out.
the sun settin soon liaos...lols
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beautiful sunset isnt it?
let your heart out.
.mayb alil childish..but who cares?its fun!
let your heart out.
oh yah...my step-cousin damn handsum!!omg...he's 2 yrs elder...same as my bro...but look very beng...hehes...but then again...he's got realie good looks...*sheeesh.. hahas...nahs..im not droolin lahs..hehes..and sumore we arent reallie related at all..!his step-mum is my step-aunt...aiyahs..its very confusin..so nvm lahs..hahs...
then chatted wif mitch online...hahas...lame guy...sae i rude...and called me A AH LIAN...*he corrected my eng for tis... -_-" and he reminded me of TT incident...*meowwww... hahas... well..reallie cant wait to see him again on tis saturdae...wonder if he's cumin nots...well..hope he does?miss thos lame stuff...crappin and all...muaahahahs...*evil nots?
hmmmm...damn full now...ate quite alots...had steamboat...tom yam soup...well..the soup wasnt spicy at all..and wat i like best was the sour taste of the tom yam..lols...it kinda reminded me of the makin process of tom yam paste..at SG...i've made it twice..hahas..altho alil tirin..and mafun..but quite fun lahs..hahahs...been spendin my tm like a real slacker...will only b back to work on the 15feb...so damn free!aiyahs...v.dae cumin le lahs..still dun noe wat to get for him.. but i've already tot of wat to get for khairul*surprised nots? lols...ya... but anyways..i've been eyein tis plain silver ring frm perlini's...its so nice and sweet...but alil expensive...$17 ..but its reallie beautiful...if i was to receive tt...omg!i'll b SO over the moon..hahahs.. *will any kind soul get me tt ring??lols... like so desperate like tt...*bleahs... no lahs.. but if the special one.the him im tokin about gets me tt...i'll reallie b happy..hahahs...but nahs...i dun tink its possible..
oh yah...spf gonna take part in NDP tos yr!!omg!its so like a dream cum thru for us!i mean we've been officially invited to perform on the dae....wif deyi band..and of coz...spf-pyss will be as a band!!the titans again!lols...too bad we orady graduate le..if nots...damn shiok for us..the feelin of performin in front of a stadium of ppl...tts so great!..still remb the dae we perform at syf..gettin into the finals...very memorable dae...not only fro us..but oso pyss...the titans to b exact...yeps...if only we can go back to tt tm...still remb me gettin thos trash results...and gettin sunburns...hvin operations..and still attendin band rite aft i discharge...fallin ill durin the practices...thos marchin...playin..hope tis tm ard..i can help them wif it...=D
hmm...watchin tv now...which is like so damn sians....mayb tml will b goin out wif jianwu & gang...tml's shujie's bdae(aka my lao pa!)...so mite be hvin a small gatherin b4 jianwu goes back camp...and b4 i return to work..lols...hopefull all of us can make it...and i've yet to receive jw's msg...tt shujie..so long hvent comfirm the tm...mayb shud stop bloggin liaos...
happy new yr once again! hehes...blog again lahs....ciaos! Xp
let your heart out.
had quite a fun tm in band..been away fro too long liaos..and i missed out on lotsa tinks...my sections got even worst..the ppl..its just so unlike the clarinetist to b tis way..y in the world hv it beame tis way?why does all this gotta rise up when we've left?just when i tot tinks wud get betta aft the thai trip..oh boy..was i wrong..its like total shit now...the boy whom i used to tink was the most innocence...changed for the worst...dun understand wats he tinkin..fight...grown up...fightin?childish.. the section which once was the BESTest of all...now...all the way at the bottom of the list...well..we've became the LAST..damn depressin..and thers lots of conflicts within the section..politics?shit...full of crap...arghs..
now other sections are so much betta...WAY better...ike the trombones...the tubas...well..in fact all the basses seems alot betta now...boost wif confidence...and determination...all thos runnins...excercises...my god!they're real motivated!keep up those works..altho i very much wudnt like to praise them...but...they're reallie impressive!reallie...
well...hahas...khairul...very guai lan lehs...hahs...kept bickerin wif me...haiyohs...but nvm lahs...coz...it was kinda fun...and i missed it too...lols...whahahahs...well..went down to SG to pay my uniform $$...oh...kit was ther eatin..hahas...he seems quite surprised to see me wif my hair let down..hahas..finally he saw le..next tm wun complain tt i nv let my hair down...hahas...always ask me to let down...hmmm...then aft tt me and gerry went to old chang kee...hahs...had squidheads...so nice!yummy lehs..hahas...then went off hm...hahas...
kaes..blog again!=D
let your heart out.
okaes...so i guess i shud be updatin on my trip to indonesia huhs..hehes...
1st feb 05
-flight was at 5.30pm..made a call be4 boardin...yea..then was off liaos...
-reached indo within 2hrs tm..
-then the hotel bellboy came n pick us up...*heh..he's pretty cute!
-check in...then took fotos in the hotel...
-waited for the host to cum...lols...*he's actually my aunt's frend..
-had dinner at tis very..err..kinda dirrty place lahs... but the food's gud..nice & cheap
-backed to hotel..bathe..watched tv..ZzzzZZzZzzz
2nd feb 05
-mornin call was at 8am..*well,indo tm is slowly than spore's tm by an hr..
-had breakfast and walked ard the hotel...*omG!the hotel's damn nice!!=D very safari style...
-took pix..*as usual...lame!!take pix alone lohs... -___-"
-went shoopin for acessories...earrins...
-2 shops away was a music shop...all the electric guitars,drum sets...*looked so cool! kinda reminded me of HIM..
-then lunch in the mall..beef noodles..
-went to uncle yunos hse...played playstation...lols..
-omG!!they hv 5 cats lohs...wahs laos...keep until so many cats...*eEEeEEe..
-then went to the mountain top...well..the view wasnt tt fantastic...went at e wrong tm...lols
-intended to hv satay for dinner...but all sold out liaos..
-then went to town and had KIKO...jap food...
3rd feb 05
*errr...sick lahs...so cudnt remb much...
-but i played fireworks...so beautiful!! =D
haiyohs...i lazy to type le lahs!!.....update again!!hehes...
let your heart out.
went shoppin just now too...got a black racer-back...frm S&K..and a white polo tee frm gio...wanna get other stuff....but ther wasnt enuff time...mayb i can get the rest frm indo... oh yah...i oso collected my pay todae..$518... seems alot huhs?but still gonna contribute ard $200++ to my family household...100++ in my bank...the rest...can then be spent..!!yay!=D wanna get myself a watch...mp3...shoes...specs...so many tinks lehs...but cash like not enuff lehs...hahahs *any kind soul??lols...
14feb...valentines dae cumin le..rackin my brain on wat to get for HIM...aiyahs...reallie difficult... hv to wait for the other him to find out...b4 i can get for tt HIM...erms...confusin?hahas... too bad lohs!i noe he's kinda interested in music & a certain sport.. tts all...so based on tis 2 info...hv to go searchin for the perfect gift...well..i dun noe how he feels for me...and im afraid tt if i my feelins for him deepens...then it wud b totally heartbreakenin...\\sheeeesh//...when can i noe?shud i confess??or shud i not?...tts all for todae...update again when i get hm...tc everyone..! and will definately miss u guys!=D
let your heart out.
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