Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
results..i guessed im really not cut out for alvls?cos im not the study-student type..im not suitable for studyin..ya,mayb i shud heed THEIR advice..quit skl...start workin.. shit my life! i hate my life..guess wat?im the only one who didnt get any alvl passes...and the only one who got 3 'ao' passes...bt wats the shit?to her..'ao' is equals to fail..is it means nth at all.. i flared up on agnes..no, i didnt take it out on her...and no its not bcos i dun noe wat to sae...its true wats.. i cannot b compared to her.. cos like i said...her parents arent as strict as mine.. next tm dun sae we hv the same results...cos overall..u're still betta than me.. i may sound mean kaes..bt im sorry...i just cannot take it anymore.broke down in skl just now durin accounts.. yes, i broke down infront of them.stressed.. everytink's stressin me..cos im not as intelligent as them? fuck my life lahs..i hate my life.. then wendy ng told me i've gotta see the vp later on..wif agnes.. shit. at tt tm i feel as thou im runnin out of tm..death is nearin me later on..wat if i break down again?wat if im severly punished by her?i cant help bt tink of all these u noe.. if u guys are in my shoes..u guys will noe...bt do u guys really understd wat im goin thru?i doubt so..cos u're not me..u're not in my family..and most of all..u dun noe how my family membs are like.. they're definately not like ur parents.. who tells u they undrestd y u didnt do tt well.. not like ur parents who nag a few tms and the matter wud b gone..for me..it wud take mths b4 the incident wud b dissolved..so tell me wat shud i do next? altho death sumtms do occur in my mind..bt ya, i normal..and sensible enuff to push all these aside lahs..im not so dumb as to ends my life..bt then again, who noes? it doesnt really hurt if u fantasize once in awhile rites?
as the clock is tickin away..my fear grows bigger in me.. i really wonder, will i b able to get away wifout lookin for the vp?or can i get away wif life? i guess the only tink now is to wake up frm my dream.. and start workin.. worryin bout how life's stills goes on for me.
let your heart out.
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