Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
got my results back le. well.. actually im alil statisfied with it..bt then im sure i can do betta than my prelims de eh? ms jas wana me to work harder in my sci and maths so tt i can push up my overall results.. well.actually its to make up for my humanities lahs. sigh.really need to work harder for my history le!
(opps. mm jus walked past me -.-)
for ur info.mm is my cousin's friend lahs..not bad lookin. hahas (=
oh yah,i went to MS with lend ytd..omg!i tell u..we had a super duper dae outs!actually wanted to study till 3pm then chiong to sakae sushi to hv out breakfast-lunch de..bt then i really cannot tahan lahs.. so we went to carl's junior..the servin ther is like so so so HUGE lahs.. we only ordered beef chili fries and criss cut fries to share..then i eat till very full le lahs.wah laos. hahas. aft tt we walked ard MS..and saw kenny and his gf..hahas. so funny! we almost lost our way in MS cos the place's so big..
we reached sakae sushi on the dot!!nono..we're not kiasu..hahas.cos u see..we really did lost our way!!hahas.then we went to eat and crapped alot while eatin.hahas! we made a fool out of ourselves lahs. especially when the cute waiter asked "SO YOU WANT THE KIDDY SET?" haas. leng was super paiseh!i cant help bt burst out laughin infront of the waiter. :) then i wanted to lie down on the seat to slp,so i looked ard to see if anybody's lookin..once i looked up..the waiter was like lookin at me?lols. so funny. i think practically the whole dae was like laughters aft laughters! started durin ss..daryl sit's a super funny guy lahs!
hmmm.then on my way hm with agnes. we saw ailing's bro..he looks very cute too..yea.very diff frm his photos.yeps. then i kept disturbin agnes with him..i dun noe y,it somehow ended up with me wantin to b agnes's dad's GF lahs.. so dumb!!yes agnes.im referrin to YOU!hahas!
ciaos. gotta go le. hvin my tuition soon
love ya peeps (:
let your heart out.
hmmm..was supposed to attend chem todae.bt ms selena didnt wan me & agnes ther?aft i came into chec..its my first tm experiencin such situation lahs.wher the tcher will sae.. "NONO.DUN COME FOR TIS LESSON.PLS CONCENTRATE ON THE OTHER SUBJECTS.COS U DID WELL FOR MY SUBJECT LE.SHOO!"
hahas. then me,agnes and leng took the chance to watch DEATHNOTE.we made leng watch it with us again.. so we're gonna treat her to another movie aft the o's!! i think most prob its gonna b STEP DOWN. tis dance show between a cleaner in college and a student in the college. its very very nice (:
hmm.went to read his blog..well..i read them everytm im online. bt todae's entry hurts alil?he talked about knowin tis new gal..sigh.all the best to him then..its always good to make new friends.so erms..ya. hahas. i think i should too.hahas.nvm. shall hv some gummies later on. u noe wats?GUMMIES ALWAYS CHEER ME UP WHEN IM DOWN.bet u guys didnt noe tt except for hua hua eh? hahas.
alrites.i think i shud log off le.
ciao ppl (:
LOVES YUL`
and the one and only u.
let your heart out.
got back all my results le.oh man..kinda atrocious lahs.. :( *sadded! i think im only satisfied with my sci results..
eng: C5
chi: C5
maths: B4
sci: B3
humanities: D7
sigh.STUDY.STUDY.STUDY!!!
cant afford to get such results for my o's eh?? ESTHER TAN, PLS BUCK UP CAN??! *gogogo. bt then again,i still demoralised lahs. heng,ms esther's askin me backed for humanities remedial ((:
she's gonna drill me to get my B grade!yayness.
todae..i think all the tchers kinda haywired lahs.hahas. 1st it was ms esther, then it was ms selena..HAHAS.i cudnt believed my ears when i heard ms selena singin in class!hahas. so cute..desmond asked her to stop bt the continued and tis tm she sang even louder!!so funny!lols.
ms selena gave us 2 other skl paper to do again.anderson ans bowen de.. then all of the sudden tt jack have to asked me in class :" eh esther, bowen sec very familiar lehs.. whos skl arhs?" wahs laos..purposely de lohs.. -.-!! i got tongue-tied..luckily for me,thers agnes..hahas!she shoot him backed. thnks gal! ((:
well.gtg le.
ciaos
let your heart out.
hvent been bloggin..yea.. so here am i!
hahas..hmmm..got backed my results le.. bt not for all subjects. hmm..im kinda disappointed lahs.. didnt do very well..hmmm.at least to me its not very well done lahs..hahas. and my chi marks tied with joel!!irritatin..hahas..he has been comparin with me since mid-yr lahs!hahas.
okaes.im so gonna work double-ly hard le! *gogogo ((:
okaes. guess wats?i sae des ytd!!at my hse bustop..LOLS. to b truthful i was like so HUA CHI lahs!lols. cos as i was walkin down frm the shelter which leads down to the bustop,i saw tis very very cool lookin guy ther alone..as usual.i was HUNKING lahs.. hahas. then lookin at him..tryin to look at his face.. then as i walked nearer.. he suddenly turned ard.. i almost jumped lahs!i think my facial expression was kinda stupid.. i was actually shocked tt the guy suddenly turned..bt the most shockin thing was I DIDNT EXPECT HIM TO BE DESMOND! isnt it so coincident? i was like view his friendster profile some days backed. and i seriously thinks he reminds me of jay chou.okaes. shant go on anymore.bleahs.
he oso got tis grp of childhood friends, whom are my primary skl best friends lahs.and one of them..changed so much..i was very shocked to hear stuff he did. hmmm.really. agnes saes tts bcos the impression he gave me stopped at the primary skl stage.hahs.nvm.
oh!!i went to candy empire todae!yayness!lols, i spent $8.40 on candies!shared with leng tis M&Ms which cant b bought in supermarket..its MINT CRISP.heh..jealous rites??HAHAS..its really nice..and i bought STARBURST..damn juicy lahs.my fave ((:
before i forget..im changin my target le!i dun think i wanna get tis puma suede reporter bag anymores. wanna get tis nike bag!!lols. SAVE SAVE SAVE (:
okaes. gtg le..gettin tired..
loves
let your heart out.
let your heart out.
uthong was askin if im eligible for the 1st 3mths in jc..would i want to attend..well..i think i dun mind lahs..go ther make more friends.. hahas!
hmm..not a very bad idea huhs?wait till my results are backed then sae..if not damn embarrassin de..LOLS
hmm..he was oso suggestin tt if i wanna get in to advertisin design course in poly..then can try out as an intern at an advertisin firm..hahs, he saes if i wan to he can help me get a place as one in the advertisin firm his cousin works in..omg!she's one of the directors ther lahs! tts like freakin cool can?lols. hmmm...i might consider takin up tis opportunity!
kaes..signin off now. (:
let your heart out.
currently receivin the PRINCESS HOURS OST frm leng! thnks bestie!!lols.hahas.i love you! (=
let your heart out.
lols.was usin google to search for YUL's real name.heh.. KIM JEONG HOON. yeps!he's jus so adorable lahs..hahas!went to get some pics of him too..gonna transfer them to my hp later on.. *yayness!
waitin for leng to come online..so tt we can trade songs..lols. i wanna hv the PRINCESS HOURS OST! leng arhs.. faster come online lehs..hahas. then i can send u the songs u want too.. i kept listenin to PERPHAPS LOVE..one of the soundtrack from the show.. and im toatally in love with it le!altho i dun noe wat it means.. bt its really very nice.. actually i dun listen to korean songs de.. bt then i think i might start listenin to them (:
KIM JEONG HOON's my fave!
addicted to YUL`
let your heart out.
im here to update again..lols. how how how? im totally addicted to YUL le.. hmm..hv to find out his real name soon..i cant possibility keep mentionin his reel name in here rites?hahas. bleahs!i keep tellin jasmine he's my HUSBAND.lols i keep sayin till she rolled her eyes at me..hahas!
YUL` RAWKS MY SOCKS~ ((:
was talkin to jackson and he asked to hv dinner together one of these daes..im curious as to how he'll b like when we hv dinner outs and when we hang outs togther..cos by readin his blog..he seems to b like a really fun person to b with lahs..he's really funny.. ahahs. gonna hv dinner with him aft our o's.
sigh.didnt managed to watch princess hours todae..cos my aunt's at hm the whole dae lahs..then agnes,leng & josh came over to do maths..yay!i finished my science hmwk which uthong gave me..im left with thos questions tt im stuck with..gonna try them again tml (=
the o's are comin..bt im not lettin it get me.
im gonna ace it! *yayness.
let your heart out.
hahs..the show is jus so addictive!! (= oh no..im really so in love with the show le. i watched up to episode 5. if i continue watchin arhs..tts it.. no need take my lunch le lohs!cos its already 4pm?i watch for like 4-5hrs le.. hahas!opps!
IM SO IN LOVE WITH YUL ! he's the one lahs.hees
pls let me continue DREAMING.hahas X)
hahas.i love his smile. its really charming. my PRINCE CHARMING! ((: hahs.hmmm.. and im oso startin to fall for SHIN too. i love the part wher he looks at the shoes chaegyung designed for him. i think aft watchin tis show..im really gonna work hard for the o's and get into temasek's DESIGN school (:
shall update more eh?lols. AGNES!mus watch PRINCESS HOURS. cos thers one part wher they mentioned about DONG BANG SHIN KI..only one small part..bt they did not appear in the show.. :P
addicted to YUL`
let your heart out.
omg!im currently watchin PRINCESS HOURS on youtube now. oh no!i noe i shudnt b doin tis..bt its really too temptin le! haas. it really a very funny show. i think u ppl shud watch it lahs!
the actors in ther are really HUNKS! especially LEE YUL.omg!so he's so cute lahs!haas.i think he looks better than LEE SHIN. and SHIN is super tall! 1.84m lahs. freak.hahas. bt he's good-lokin too. (= HOT
im fallin in love with tis show le.
(=
loves` YUL
haas.
let your heart out.
went to the SGH tis mornin.
yeps.hmm.. spent 4 whole hrs ther!omg. frm 9am to 1pm lahs.. damn slpy..
so im goin go for another operation on the 21st of dec. bt ther isnt a need to be warded..it'll b a day surgery.. Dr Ng was tellin me tt if i chose a date 1 or 2 mths earlier, then we would b helpin me perform the surgery..bt bcos he'll not b ard.. so another doctor will b doin it for me
to sae the truth, i actaully kinda scared..Dr Ng was sayin tt ther will b 2 alternatives to numb my hand..its either numb the left thumb only or numb the whole hand. freak! i mean i really dont wanna go thru thos pain again..if not for tt lump..i wouldnt even wanna go numb my hand.. the previous tm they had to inject so many needled jus to numb my hand.. it was so gross..my whole of my hand was practically blue-black.. i remb cryin like a baby.. cos the pain was really unbearable..i noe i made aunt cried too.. i jus couldnt help it..sigh.lets hope tis tm ard's gonna b a better experience.
enough of all tis. hmm. im in love with sun ho's song. only one of them lahs. "WO HAI SHI HUI XIANG TA" . yea. dun ask me y.. bt i really like it..hmmm.nvm
gtg! (=
loves
let your heart out.
well.im home the whole dae lahs!and guess wats?its not sians lohs..lols. cos i played audition with jasmine jus now..oh no!i think im a bad influence..no wonder mummy dun like jasmine to hang out with me. sigh. cos she's hvin her end of yr exams tml..then we still play audition tgt. hmmm.
okaes. i went down to parkway for like 5mins jus now?jus to pass my aunt her hp..she left it at hm..well,talkin about parkway..i went ther ytd..super bored ther lahs!!bt as i was walkin ard the mall..guess wats?hahas!i saw 3 shuai ges..hahas!opps. one of them works in isetan, the kids department's cashier. another one works in m1 as a hp promoter..and the last one was tiffany's bro,who works in RUSTY..yeps!then i left my no. with them so tt if they need ppl to work then i'll b hired aft my o's! (= somemore so near my hse lahs.. then dun hv to waste so much money on transportation wats..hahas.
then aunty jennifer,my aunt's friend sae wanna intro me to her son. -.-!! lols he's 18 tis yr and is a MI 1st yr student at toh tuck..i tot he mite b someone i noe if he was in bartley's 2nd yr..yeps. then she kept askin me to go down todae..hahs!sorry aunty jennifer. i didnt noe parents these daes are so open-minded..hahas.so funny lahs.
okaes. jus now while playin audition grandma came into the rm and ask me for 4 no.s for 4D de lahs. then i told her 8475. hahas..know wher i got the no. frm?at tt point of tm tt was my audition game points.HAHAS.so crazy lahs. and she sae gonna give me some of her winnings if she win any!hahas
PRAY PRAY PRAY PRAY!!
must win arhs!! (=
let your heart out.
well.went kboxing with SAL todae!had super loads of fun lahs.!aft my mcq paper agnes and me went to plaza singapura..wanna try our luck to see if spotlight was open nots.hahas!and yes.i was! (=
got some stuff i needed and then we continued walkin till we saw DAISO. the jap store..woahs.its super cool lahs. cos all the stuff they sell are all jap stuff!and the best part is everythings $2!hmmm..shud b storewide bahs. i bought the strawberry soda..which really taste very nice..
aft tt we made our way to lin's hse.hahs. u crapped so much lahs..actually i think all the 'fei hua' comes frm me lahs. oh well.. the leopard nv changes its spots rites?heh.
then slacked till 1pm and then we made our way to hougang plaza/mall. hmm.. ya,as usual..nvm. we really sang lots of songs. altho i think most of the songs are sand by agnes and me..lols!well..tis is the 1st tm i stay thruout the whole session.cos the previous 2 tms i left early.ya..haas.wet blanket.
aft tt i was surprised to find tt im still kinda familiar with hougang area.surprisingly to see tt i actually remb the routes we used to walk tgt. hmm..
when i got home,went to play candles at the corridor..heyys!its not childish kaes..made my initials!altho not very nice lahs. bt then..i like it!hahas.
kaes.gotta go (=
ciaos!
oh yah.before i forgot..
JACKSON TAN'S so man lahs!
wahahahahas =P
let your heart out.
ther wasnt any smile comin frm him.. and i jus didnt noe wat to do. i didnt noe how to console him..and at the moment i felt so lost. hmm.heyys. cheer up alrites?tml will b a betta dae for you. cos im here!(= keep smilin alrites?
went to tamp mall with jack,pt,josh and agnes..oh my!!we sure had loads of fun minus-ing the part wher i had to throw up aft my meal at long john.haas. hmmm..i went to popular to get some stuff.heh. its a secret for my besties in CHEC.im gonna give them a secret one of the daes next wk.. lols. actually the idea is i take frm him de.hahas. okaes.he didnt sae its copyrites rites?hees. so yeps..hope they'll like it.
hmmm..history todae was kinda disastrous AGAIN! hmmm..bt then its the first tm i managed to complete both my essay questions!!acvhievement lehs!lols.
oh yah *jumpin up and down excitely!!* hahas,i can buy adidas KIDS SIZE shoes!!oh my..tts like freakin COOL can?hahs.cos not everyone's feet is as small as mine?hees!! the sales lady was like tellin jack,pt and josh tt it'll b whoevers fortune to hv me as their gf cos my feet size is small..i laughed so hard lahs. cos i tot it was pretty "cold"?hahas!!thers like no link! =X they jus dun go tgt lahs.hahas. bt im uber happy cos i can actually getthe model for like only 80bucks when the adult size one is 120bucks??woahs!!
SAVE.SAVE.SAVE
ESTHER TAN PLS START SAVIN MONEY FOR THE SHOES! hehs
and then i oso gotta start savin for the hongkong trip tis dec.i'll be goin away for ard 4-5 daes.. so p, dun miss me alrites?hahas! hmmm..i'll b goin on 10dec. tis date sounds familiar hors?lols.tts my bdae. so my loyal readers.. pls mark tt date on ur calender and START SAVIN!lols. lets save tgt! (=
let your heart out.
and i think i screwed up my practical todae.wat the hell is wrong with me?and it seems like i've offended him in sort of some ways?i think he was referrin to me. i didnt noe a msg frm me could hv such a huge impact on him.im sorry.
sometms i jus feel like givin up.givin up on everything which i've worked so hard for.. bt i cant afford to.no i cant. im gettin emo as days goes by and i freakin hate the way i am now. sometms i feel like tellin myself to get a life.
history,history.i hate studyin.
let your heart out.
well.like wat my tutor saes..its always okaes to make mistakes frm the tests and lessons..bt jus make sure you dun make the same one durin the o's.well.altho he sometms abit "cold" arhs.. as in the jokes he saes.. bt then he can be super motivatin!haas.
was readin someblogs.well..the only blogs i go to are like agnes's, josh's, weijie's,jackson's (which all i didnt link to) and linlin's.
yeps.all their post seems so interestin.especially his..seems like his world is perfectly fine without hvin me in his life.tts not bad huhs? haas. i cant imagine him hvin dyed golden hair. hmm..it might look good u know. so i hope i'll b able to see it. haas. then can laugh at him =X opps. being alil evil here.. bt then who noes?doubt he ever reads my blog anymore.
weijie.thers jus so many things i wanna tell u..bt i wouldnt hv the courage to do so.i keep think about us.even though it seems stupid..bt i guess my life's revolved ard u?hmm.i dun noe..u'll tell me to go on with life.bt i cant seem to do so. nvm.hmm.jus wished to see u.cos i miss u so badly.till i dun noe wat to do.
EXAMS,EXAMS GO AWAY,
DONT EVER COME AGAIN ANOTHER DAE.
LITTLE ESTHER WANTS TO PLAY,
EXAMS, EXAMS GO AWAY!
(tis song is sang to the nursery rhyme : RAIN RAIN GO AWAY)
haas. gettin alil wu liao le..
lols. kaes..gotta go.
ciaos! <3>3fingers`
let your heart out.
hmmm.had my maths p2 todae. gosh!its really a killer.
not sure if i can do well for it..
pls.pls.pls.
pls let me do well can? *arghs! i hate exams!
finally,todae can slack for alil short while. cos ther's isnt any paper tml.
*yayness!
well.the journey to skl todae was so scary! was on the train with jackson.and the train was super squeezy!then i kept gettin touched by tis old man in the train.i dun noe if it was on purpose or nots. bt then again,the rest shall be history to me.
dun wanna go think about it anymore.
had lunch with desmond,josh,belle & rach at tis taiwanese so-called cafe. the food was good.rach and i shared a plate of fried chicken and fried tofus. was surprised to see tt her appetite's as small as mine lahs!
and i vomitted again.the fourth tm le. i dun noe wats wrong with me..
they keep askin me to see a doc. bt i dun think its really necessary.
lets see how it goes.
to the ppl who really cares for me:
i noe i stand a really important place in ur hearts, bt im still not tt ready to let go of my past. jus sumhow i keep thinkin of them..memories which i dun wanna let go of. i noe its really selfish of me.bt i really cant seem to find other solutions to help myself.
if i continue msgin u tt way.i'll by lyin to u guys.. i dun wan to end up hvin an akward relation if we arent fated to b tgt. i really tryin very hard to not think abt all these and take one step at a tm.
im sorry if tis is gonna hurt u ppl.
bt then again.i wanna thnk u all for being by my side and wantin to protect the esther who seems so fragile to u.
heyys ppl!
i few more daes to go.
*jia yous! (=
let your heart out.
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