Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters
hvent been bloggin these 2 daes so ya.. lols. i hv been goin outs till quite tired lahs. so dun hv the strength to blog.
ytd i went for lunch with meiqi, charity and gerry at marina sq (: went for sakae sushi. and charity embarressed me lahs. cos of the waiter.lols. anyways.. me and my big mouth.. i dared her so ya.. =X i learnt not to shoot my mouth any-old-how! HAHAS.
i hereby wanna thnk gerry for accompanyin me the whole mornin before meetin up with the other 2.. we went ard place like novena ,esplanade, seah st. jus to find a job lahs. and i finally went for a walk-in interview at CHOCZ. at the esplanade.. tml the manager will call me and let me noe the venue i'll b workin.. so.. hmmm.. ther goes my FREEDOM le. cos i'll b startin work frm this comin mondae!! and i'll b super busy.. hvin to work even on chirstmas eve and the dae itself.. yeps.
okaes. then we went for movie for the sakae lunch. we watched HAPPY FEET (: super super nice! u guys shud go watch it too!
well..as for todae..woke up super early..cos me gerry and jingjing followed changyuan to NUS to do some hard drive packagin stuff lahs.. worked for 6.5hrs and we were paid $37.50..lols. the bus ride ther was 1.5 hr long!!my butts were freakin pain can?thnks to changyuan who dun wanna spent $$ takin the mrt.. super kuku.almost boxed him lahs!
aft worked met up with linlin,serene & agnes at serangoon mrt station.. i waited for the for half an hr and another half an hr for bobby -.-!! wahs. my patience not bad huhs?lols. and we went to chomp chomp for dinner.. we left for LIQUID KITCHEN at 8.30 nd we slacked till 10.30 before leavin for home. (: linlin,serene and bobby ordered drinks lahs. can only remb bobby's sex on the beach.. it taste like fruit punch can?lols. friends who noes me shud noe i dun drink arhs.. bt i took one sip frm the each of their drink.. i promised not to drink anymore!the feelin aft tt was so arghs!lols. i dun noe.. i dun like the feelin.. and if wj gets to noe.. i'll b scolded lahs!
okaes.gonna go free yoga sessions with gerry tml. then accompany her to buy her prom dress..(: aft tt mite b goin to leng's sec skl chalet! weeeee~
im enjoyin myself!
kaes..goin to bed le.
nites ppl!!
let your heart out.
hmmm.. hvin a bad headache now. must b due to thos late nite slps. gonna take a rest aft i finish bloggin. (:
was watchin the DEATHNOTE anime on youtube. okaes lahs..wj saes im outdated..cos he watched till episode7 le.. and i jus started.. ya lahs ya lahs.. IM OUTDATED LOHS. i jus finish watchin episode 3..aiyahs.. cfm can ctach up with him de lohs. cos he has got tonnes of projects to do while i dont hv any! yayness.jus hope tt he wouldnt overwork himself.
hmmm.jackson showed me another video clip on youtube.. its the FREE HUG campaign video. its really kinda cool u noe. and i think spore shud start one too!hahas. the song which was featured on the clip was oso a nice cover done by this australia band THE SICKPUPPIES..
shall post the video to let u guys see. heres the url:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4&eurl=
let your heart out.
(:
okaes. i dun noe wat to blog.. mayb i'll go search for nice MVs then share on my blog with u guys.. kaes.. stay tuned!
let your heart out.
i went to ngee ann poly todae.. and yeps..im home le! woke up like so freakin early can?6.45am..didnt wanna wake up de. cos hv been slpin very very late for the past two nites.. anyways,im jus glad tt i woke up and drag myself to chec..noe y?lols. shall tell u guys later on.. keep u all in suspense. WAHAHAHAS
reached skl at 8.30.. bt we only set off at 9.30?! -.- 早知道就不要这么早起床了！ reached np at ard 10 bahs.. and the first thing jack told me was.. "i saw XX XXX XXX!! he was at the bustop.! -.-!! erms.. i dun noe wat to sae.. then he kept shoutin his name lahs. arghs.
when we went ther..hmm,abit got cheated lehs.HAHAS. cos we were told we're goin for this real estate course thingy and we ended up in the SCHOOL OF ENGINEERING.. yes.. SOE.. god is so mean lahs. play this kind of joke on me.. erms. hmmm..i ws really hopin we wont see him.. and yes we didnt lahs.lols. so..oh well. i dun noe.haas.
the programmes of the day was the talk given by MRS GRACE QUAH the principal of the coruse bahs.. then followed by MR TAN.. yeps.. he talked till so funny lahs.. they showed us their overseas cip trip..tts is so attractive lahs. ya..lols. then aft tt we were split into smaller groupings.. agnes,marc,jack, ms jas and me in a grp..then our student leaders were aaron and lexter (hopefully i got his name rites) and 2 other guys..who didnt really intro themselves.. bt then they were all super super helpful..lols. omgomgomgomgomg.. lols. agnes shud noe y arhs? lols. cos lexter is so damn good-lookin..or shud i sae cute?hahas!my cup of tea lahs.he's tan,has single eye lids and small eyes!lols.kinda style too.could stop takin my eyes off him.opps. ((: then when we were takin photos.. he came to sit infront of me and agnes!omg lahs!lols 松鼠乱撞！hahas. okaes i think i can like go on about him for like daes or mayb even weeks lahs.so ya.haas
aft the tour..we had the monopoly challenge.. and yes. i was the overall winner..cant believed tt i had such luck!ya.. im a millionaire le.. zai rites?LOLS. told agnes i won bcos i saw shuai ges!hahas. dumb lahs. lols. and i got a special edition UNIQUELY SPORE edition MONOPOLY GAME. next tm invite u ppl to come my hse and play. (:
okaes..im like changin my point of veiw on engineering school le. uh-huh.its not bcos of lexter lahs.. jus tt the course seems pretty interestin too.. so..hmmm.. ya.. gonna consider it too. hopefully can arhs..
okaes.. gotta go le.. need some rest too.
i wanna step out of his shadow`
let your heart out.
omg.i went vivo city and i did my MANICURE!! tts like finally lahs. lols. purposely keep my nails till very very long..jus for the manicure. i did express french manicure.. took ard 20mins or so..yea.
then gerry, charity and i walked ard vivo..searchin for their prom nite dress..hahas. apparently, charity was the only one tryin the dresses.. gerry and i waited for her.haas. hmm.. vivo is so big..big until i think i'll get lost in it lahs! altho ther are many new shops.. bt then i realised..its too big le..big until u walk till no endin.. then slowly u'll feel sian de. i saw the outdoor part of vivo. hmmm..the kids playground..hahas. like so funny.. so many kids playin.haas. i oso wanna play. :P
i walked till my legs super duper suan!shud go massage them one of these daes. HAHAS. 10mins;$10. then we finally bought meiqi's present frm candy empire. hope she'll like it..
saw little shawn too!lols. he had his hair covered half his face and im surprised tt he actually can see me lahs!lols. his friend very funny..said hi to me..as if he noes me like tt.
then i think i really need a job soon!i'll b goin broke too lahs..bth le!must get a job asap. charity's friend is workin at sentosa as a part timer..hope she'll b able to get us the job.. 5.80 per hr..not bad lahs. haas. dont mind workin ther..can get to see hunks! =X at least its betta than SG..4.50 per hr. KEN ASK ME DONT WORK THER ANYMORE LE. (ps: ken..ken..i mentioned ur name here! ) hahas.
i think my schedule for this weeks goin be alil tight.. tml goin ngee ann for some tour thing. then mos prob will b goin outs aft tt.. depends. then wed will b free.. thursdae most prob goin bladin with charity and gerry and lastly, friday goin dinner with linlin, agnes & serene at chomp chomp.. aft tt mus arrange another to celebrate meiqi's belated bdae at New York New York..die lahs die lahs.. i desperately need money.! any lobangs can let me noe alrites? (: gonna be so so so tired for this week!
why?`
let your heart out.
李圣杰's 最近.
let your heart out.
lols.xk has been msgin me in the wee hours..bt then i fell aslp..xk,thinks he's superman..lols.hvin late nites out with his friends..awww,if only im a guy too..i'll b like him,hvin those late nites. still remb gettin a call frm his hp for the very 1st tm..it was super funny lahs!hahas.his friens asked me to open the door -.-! yes..my hse door.they called the wrong esther.
actually i couldnt fall aslp last nite..lay in bed till 2am listenin to my mp3. was listenin to TVXQ's new album.thnks to the TVXQ siao (AGNES NG) tt im oso startin to like korean stuff.. korean boys.. korean dramas..LOLS. i spent hrs like a idiot waiting for a reply.dissappointin huhs?whoever would b as dumb as me?haas. so dumb.
anyways.i made other plans. goin to vivo city with charity & gerry tml! yayness. so cool..and we're goin shoppin..goin to look for jobs..most importantly we're gonna get meiqi her belate present (: meetin them at 12pm at tampines.which means i can slp for an hr or so before meetin the girls.hahas.
yayness..i'll b free at 9am sharp tml!omgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomgomg. i jus cant wait to b free..imagine those shows i'llb watchin.wahahahas.!
oh yah.im so gonna watch "It All Started With A Kiss" woahs!its super funny!lols.u guys shud watch. cant wait for tml's mcq to end. heh.
wish me luck! jiayou, jiayou; all the way! yay! :P
just another freaking coward`
let your heart out.
let your heart out.
then i edited some profile stuff and links.. made a new photo slide..cos the one linlin has is jus so cool lahs!i think im gonna add more stuff like mayb a counter..yeps. oh well.. like at kkh's personal msg says.. EVERYTHING IS JUST SO TROUBLESOME. yea..i do agree. its so difficult lahs.. and i spent like 1hr to get wat i wanted?nvm. i like can le. thnks anyways!
ppl, do comment on my new bloskin alrites?as u see..i've got my tagboard changed too. the old one's alil rusty le..cant seem to tag de lahs..mus keep on clickin. yeps..more changes comin up soon..like the new addition on a song player..so do visit my blog regularly eh?lols. SELF ADVERTISIN :D
let your heart out.
y cant u hv alil more faith in me?
i did my best.
i really did`
let your heart out.
damn sway todae..mus b ppl out ther cursin me lahs! can u believe it?i studied 5 topics and all 5 nv come out? -.-~ wats is wrong with cambridge?arghs! they shud b shot lohs. =X opps.hahas. i studied. on china, russia, japan, fall of communism in eastern europe and germany.. and in the end only china came out for SBQ? wth?! arghs.
完蛋了啦！这次真的会死得很惨！
tts it..im not gonna bother le lahs..irritatin history! i hate u..trust me.im gonna tear u up into pieces..hmmm..nono.. i shudnt do tt.lols.cos i think i shud sell u to the rag and bone man..can earn $$ somemore.. so fustratin lahs! my notes are like piles of mountains! waste paper..hahas.
I HATE HISTORY!
okaes.mayb bloggin later..if not then tml then blog le..(:
see ya
let your heart out.
cos im gonna study aft i fin bloggin..(:
im gonna live for myself and not anybody anymore. if u think im tryin too hard..then i guess i'll jus hv to stop wat im doin..comcentrate on my o's. hmm.
PPL. start datin me now.yes,i mean right now.my list is super long now lahs.lols.i jus realised tt loads of ppl are askin me outs..and all my answers to them are.."okaes,aft my o's." in the end i accummulated loads of dates?tis is bad..how am i gonna tahan? -.-
let me see..ther is:
1) raynard: okaes.i've been promising you tt i'll go out with you since years ago?sorry!i promise i'll go outs with u aft my o's. (:
2) linlin,serene,agnes: tis one no need sae..comfirm mus go out de. haas
3) gerry,charity,meiqi: FIRST ON MY LIST! :P
4) leng: so long nv go out le..bring me go play!kaes lahs.kaes lahs.friend!
5) jackson: our dinner date!lols
6) joshua-spf: hmmm..mus i really go to ur church?hmm..okaes lahs.i'll go..i guess i hv no choice aft sayin "see ya" in my last msg rites?sigh. -.-
7) sec4g's gatherin
i think tt shud b all le.. hmmm.. the list can still go on.. jus see if anyone wanna ask me out nots..im FREE and AVAILABLE. and tt applies to my status too.LOLS.crap.
history's startin in 5hrs tm.
ciaos.
let your heart out.
let your heart out.
was listenin to jay chou's FENG last nite. i cried.and i think u shud noe why.
被伤透的心能不能够继续爱我
我用力牵起没温度的双手
过往温柔已经被时间上锁
只剩挥散不去的难过
i feel like givin it all up..cos u make me feel as if u dun really care much..bt its really not easy. and i noe i wont want to give up..cos i cant. you noe how important u are to me. bt are u even noticin me?im still here.
我要的只是你在我身边`
let your heart out.
hmmm... nvm..
shall put the date up myself then.
16nov(thurs)
so dumb..hahas. sigh.u're comfort is all i need. bt then.. linlin msged me last nite.thnks gal..i'll b fine (: and i asked her this qn: "is it tm for me to let go?" and she said mayb i shud let nature take its course. and its oso tm for me to accept others le.. i admit its true tt ther are really really good guys out ther. who's willing to help me with things tt they dont even hv to..im really touched. really. i noe u're still waitin.. jus give me alil more tm to settle my feelins..bt i wouldnt b too sure of my answer to you. as wat linlin saes,let nature take its course.. hmmm.lols.mayb i shud jus stay this way.
shall blog again ltr.gonna wash up for skl le.
let your heart out.
then used the com till 1pm and i went back to slp till 3pm.. now sendin kaihong my photos for the blogskin..im lookin forward to a nice skin hors.hahas,im not stressin you. gonna give him a song list for the blog. thnks thnks!!
hvin tutition later at 8.30pm.super sians.
I DUN WANNA STUDY ANYMORE.
let your heart out.
u noe,i feel totally lost now..i dun noe wat to do..i always tot he'll be the one who understands me the most.. bt then come to think of it..he actually dont. cos i, myself dun undertand myself..so how are the rest able to understand me?bt if u think u understand the ESTHER TAN whom u noe. then let me tell u.. u are so wrong.. they are jus illusions tt i made up to mislead u ppl.. to mislead the impression u ppl hv of me.. i think im such a fake person. fake till i dun even noe how far i'll go..
while muggin halfway. grandma suddenly mumbled to herself. mayb not mumble..bt it was loud enough for me to hear clearly wat she saes. it was about my dad.
wat the hell?who do u think u are?jus bcos u're my freakin dad..doesnt mean u hv the rights to take a loan out of my insurance money.. those are not even paid by you..so wat rights do u hv to take thousands out of it? freak you. those are aunt's hard earned money.
close frends of mine shud noe i come frm a single parent family.i didnt even hv the chance to take a real good look at my mum..i mean my real mother. i guess the 1st tm was like 2 weeks ago. i happened to chance upon her old passport. cos at tt tm aunt misplaced my passport and she had to ransacked her drawers. i took a good look at ther passport.she's freakin young.18 years my senior.. i tot nothing of it.. bt when i heard the newsfrm grandma jus now. i had the urged to shout at both of them.
freak you two for givin birth me.. wouldnt it b a betta solution if u 2 were to abort me right frm the beginnin and divorced right after given birth to roy? so wats the deal?! family doesnt even exist in ur minds.. freakin young and u did wat u shudnt..opps,im sorry ..i think u guys lacked of sex education in the past.. why did u guys hv to bring me to earth and then make me suffer.. and make me carry the burden of being a single-parent kid?do u noe how much it hurts when ppl given me tt kind of look when i tell them.."erm,i come frm a single-parent family. i leave with my dad" which after tt they'll start apologizin profusely jus to make up for the wrong words they said earlier..why?why did u guys hv to make me suffer? for 17yrs. i always pretend tt i didnt mind the fact tt i did not hv a mother..cos i had "3 other mothers".and i am so much more fortunate than others. bt can anymone actually undestand wat im gonin thru all these while? u ppl overestimated me.. i was nv the cheerful girl u always see ard. if u do not hv the ability to maintain a family..then wat for u still wanna hv one? i dont care if im gonna get struck by a lightning for sayin these words.. cos im totally disgusted by u 2. and im not even gonna bother to look after u when i grow up. i dun wan to keep hvin to provide u the funds to smoke the shit out of u and to let u gamble. if tt is wat u're gonna do with the money i give u in future, dont dun even bother thinkin of gettin a single cent frm me.
bcos of you..i've been labelled as "one of the rubbish" in the family.. i do not want to live my life with the name of THE USELESS ONE.. im sick and tired of hearin grandma sae.. "u 3 are bloodsuckers." altho these arent really wat she meant..bt read between the words.the meanins are still ther.. why cant i be like others?to b able to hv a happy family consistin of a father and a mother.?why? i hate myself for hvin to b born..if ther was another chance..i rather not be in this world..so i do not hv to go thru all these shit.. i jus dont feel the love i need to.
to my anata: these were wat i wanna tell u.. bt u're tired spendin the whole dae out..its okaes, i wont bother u about such trivial matters anymore. i wont bother anyone at all.
im livin in a world of my own, wher nobody will ever understand wat im goin thru.. all these shit makes me think twice about wantin to fall in love and gettin married. cos the adults are obviously tryin to tell me this is all a game..
leave me alone`
let your heart out.
im so slpy!
i dun noe y.mayb due to the fact tt i've copied 5 essays jus now bahs?lols. sigh.im not feelin too good todae..i. hmmm.. i dun noe.nvm..
lols.kaihong..u're 13 and its a fact (:
i dun hv the drive to carry on my history le. uber borin.
let your heart out.
my looks are in a mess..bt who cares?haas. no one's hm..so im gonna use the com!hahas..fingers are startin itch le lahs.
currently im listenin to Stay -Goong's OST frm dave's blog.. dave teo!wats tt about me changin my bdate?hmmm..faster explain to me lehs.. and noe wats?im super surprised tt u actually remb my bdae..its been like 5-6 yrs? or alil shorter than tt?haas. glad tt u did. which means u must get me a present! wahahahas. opps.
ytd was a great dae for me. shant elaborate much (:
5 subjects.. 3 down.. 2 to go.. super excited!
17 nov : history; 20 nov : sci mcq paper
yeps..cant wait to hv my nails done.mayb its oso tm for me to hv a makeover..ppl are tellin me they're tired me seein me wear those same type of clothins. cos im always dressed in tees and jeans. if not board shorts and bermudas...bt then tts wat im comfy in wats.. how u wan me to change?i think u'll guys get shock if one dae u see me dressin femine.. like in a dress or watsoever rights?hmmm.. nvm..i shall consider and get some opinins frm the gals (:
to: GERRY, CHARITY, MEIQI
my dears!omg..im missin u guys so much.. i cannot wait till the tm wher we're able to hang out again.. i love u guys ((:
to: LINLIN, SERENE , AGNES
hmmm..okaes.. so now 2 of u are attached.. while the other 2 are not.. so how?i dun care..must spent amper tm with me hors.. and must b a all-girls outin.. dun care..dun care.. lols. okaes.im not tt unreasonable.. u guys can bring ur boys along.(: wanna see how they look too. hahas. i love u guys too.
the family got a new car..red color..it looks like a small mini-van. alil to the cute side lahs. bt then im still not used to it. waitin for aunt to get the sofa for the backseat then everyone can sit in it comfortably! yay.
oh ya..wanna thnk kaihong for takin up my blogskin assignment! call me ms tan!lols. (: thnks. hees.
(ps: he's only 13?omg..i feel so kuku lahs.haas)
ciaos. shall update again (:
let your heart out.
hi guys.. here to blog a super short entry before i start on my history..
okaes..as PROMISED, i promised weijie i'll let everyone noe about his NEW CAR, an aston martin..lols.
damn funny lahs.. his car?hmmm..okaes.. i'll believe.. HEYYS PPL!! THIS IS SU WEIJIE'S ASTON MARTIN. PLS TAKE NOTE.. (:
(ps: weijie, remb to pay for the advertising fees.thnks)
let your heart out.
okaes..stayed home cos i didnt go for steamboat tonites. uncle simon came over to cook (:
hv been playin audition for the past 1hr or so..im gettin addicted.haas. bt i did studied before playin hors.. studied on china.. 1911 revolution.the civil war..so sians lahs!haas. mao zedong?hahas.
mayb i shudnt log into msn when im playin audition..cos ppl always talk to me and i dun reply..haas. so sorry arhs.
i wanna go sentosa..i wanna go watch the musical fountain again..then go find a quiet place to sit and chat.. and feel the nite breeze blowin onto my face. i really wanna do tt once again. but..is it possible?
thers jus so many things i really wanna do.but..i dun noe if i cant hv it done nots..*CONTINUE DREAMING then*
i..i.. i du noe lahs.. really feel so lost now.. one moment i cant wait for the o's to b over..the next moment i dun noe wher i wanna go aft o's?so contradictin..
OMG OMG. i cant believe it lahs.i was like thinkin of him and he msged me at the same tm?tis is so qiao.hahas. ((:
oh yah.. i read i-weekly's horoscope jus now.. i noe i look like someone who dun believe in this sort of stuff de.. in fact i dun..bt ther are jus some things which are jus so true..for tis wk, it saes ther are plenty of chances for me to confess my love bt it depends on how i make used of these chances.. i.. hmmm..kinda true huhs? and they seas i shudnt relax myself too much for my studies..if not i'll lose track on my studies..hmm..okaes.. BUCK UP BUCK UP kaes? ((: i love myself. HAHAS so self-obsess lahs.
3fingers`
wat about u?
let your heart out.
i went for a haircut jus now..went to thin my fringe and the back.. so thin now.. and i like it.. the fringe.. hmmm.okaes lahs.. still can.. still not very used to it..bt it still looks da same.
was msgin raynard.. and he asked me to visit him at his workplace sometm later (tanah merah ferry terminal).. and he's gonna help me ask for a job ther! yay.. dun hv to trouble myself to look for a job le.hees. he also saes he missed hvin home cooked dinner and wanna come over my hse?lols. i told him okaes..bt tts provided if his my bf lahs. bt nahs..i noe he's jus jokin with me..hahas. and he mms me a photo of him wearin a wig..hahas! afro wig..SO FUNNY! :P lookin forward to meetin up with him.
okaes.im gonna live my life to the fullest from now on le.
IM GONNA LIVE MY LIFE TO THE FULLEST (: so to my friends ard me.. help me with it okaes?
i cant wait for the o's to end.. then i can go anywher i wan le.. vivo city..town area.. hongkong.. so many many places! i wanna go sentosa, pulau ubin too. yea.haas. i wanna go shoppin. go for manicure.. go clubbin?hmmm.. nahs.. not clubbin i guess..haas. SO RANDOM.
okaes..i think im loggin off on.
ciaos.
gonna read thru some history before headin for bed.. tml read again.. yay.im gonna hv dinner outs tml.. go hv steamboat (: YAYNESS
let your heart out.
josh made this jus for me ((:
candies make my dae!
IM A MUGGER :P
IM A MUGGER :P
proudly presentin my masterpiece (:
let your heart out.
im sorry for wat i've said.
im sorry for wateva i said and made u troubled.
im sorry if the msgs i sent werent convincing enough.
im sorry tt i made you doubt my words.
im sorry.
let your heart out.
supposed to convert the ans to metres then i nv convert.. eeeee.. ESTHER TAN I HATE YOU LAHS. damn careless.. when will u ever wake up? arghs!
sigh.bt overall it was alrites. i lost 10marks.. did i mentioned tt i hate proving similar triangles and congruent triangles? they sucks BIG TIME.
was watchin princess hours jus now. hmmm.todae's episode was so emotional lahs..
when u love someone with all ur heart.. its the little things they do which really makes u affected.. no matter good or bad.. it still hv its impact on u.so dun b afraid to let the ONE noe who u feel.. cos u'll regret if u bottle up all thos shit in urself.. and i dare sae im much carefree now.. i dun expect anything in return. cos i noe it jus seems too far..i cant reach out to you any longer..i'll jus sit here patiently..watchin over you. tts wat i'll do.pls do not pity me cos i get over all these and move on with life.time heals all wounds eh?i guess so..so i'll jus wait till all these are over.
do i seem much more sensible now?haas. LMAO.sigh.. i really hope i can do wat i've jus said lahs..altho its really hard.bt then..well.. i shud b lookin at ppl around me and not take them for granted anymore. (:
let your heart out.
hmmm.im hungry! (okaes.tts so random lahs.) seriously.im hvin a brain blockage here.someone pls help me..
thnks to xiankai.. he reminded me on the shear & stretch thingy. thnks!!hmm..he's really the sweetest guy i've ever known.thnks ya? so stretch is perpendicular to the invariant line and shear is parallel to the invariant line (: see?i remb!haas. im gonna so kill myself if i ever forget tis lahs.
ahhhhh..im so tensed up rite now.!
shall log out. and mayb look thru the formula booklet.
ciaos!
stay tuned for the later post of the dae (: gonna let u guys noe more bout my p2.
loves`
let your heart out.
jackson arhs jackson..i noe my hair damn smooth..dun pretend.i noe u're jealous of my hair!!dun play with it (:
ya okaes..then aft exams jackson and i were walkin towards the bustop..while chattin halfway we saw tis malay lil boy flyin out of his bike lahs!omg..it was so scary! actually we hesistated to help him cos 2 other uncles jus walked away aft lookin at him.. in the end we went up to him and offered him our help.. u noe wats?! his middle finger's nail came off.. gosh!so freakin scary.. the blood and the dangling nail made us uneasy.. we wanted to sent him to the clinic and call his parents bt he didnt want to.. so we sent him hm.. ya.. poor boy lahs.only his lil sister was at hm.. and we left aft tt.. anyways.. we did a good deed todae so it made my dae (: hope tt lil boy's alrites..yea.
now i can see y jackson's a sundae skl tcher..he's really good with kids.
PS: im not ur biggest fan and u're not my idol. :P
and then i saw wee chew..tis junior of mine..bt then i everytm pretend not to see him..i oso dun noe y..hahas.mayb i shud smile at him the next tm arhs.. feel so bad lehs.. hahas. and he looks very cute.. last tm cute.. now cuter?haas. oops.
alrites. gtg le (:
let your heart out.
hmmm..chem was okaes..like i said its managable lahs. same as maths..i can do the paper..bt then i've got tis gut feelin tt cambridge's gonna moderate the marks.. feelin so shagged lahs.
aft the exam i went for lunch with jackson,zesheng,coven,coven's friend and xinrong..was talkin about ppl frm our skl..the world's really very small..lols.
then tis was the 1st tm i talk to zesheng very private stuff..im surprised tt he actuallies confide in me..tts good (: hope he'll b alrites.durin lessons jackson sent me an mms of daryl!so freakin funny.. damn cute..hahas.
oh yah JACKSON TAN!! i've got in face le lahs..go post the pics u took in the train jus now.. i do not look like a kid lahs!arghs.so no face..lols.
bt then it was funny..im gonna get even with u tml..jus u wait arhs.. and PS: im not gonna bite my shoes tonite..stop lyin tt i'll grow tall hors..hahas.im not a kid. lalalaa..
endin now..i've nth else to sae..hmmm.
and I DO NOT NOE WAT TO STUDY FOR MY PHYSICS.
let your heart out.
hmmm.well. had maths p1 and ss todae..and it was..erms. maths was managable lahs..bt wat im afraid of is tt i'll make loads of carless mistakes.ya lohs.. im super not careful de lahs..bt i hv to sae it was a very easy nor a very difficult one.. wahs..ai seh!hahas. agnes saes it was easy lahs..hahas!good for her..which means her maths is improvin le.. hope we'll both get good marks eh? oh yah..linlin called to wish me lucks in the mornin.thnks dearie (:
then for ss.. dun think i'll do well..bt i really did put in my effort.. abt half thru the paper then i felt headache.. mus b bcos of the lack of slp 2 nites ago. finally lahs! MERGER & SEPERATION DID SOME OUTS! heng i got study arhs..if not really gonna bang the wall le. hahas.hmmm. hvin chem tml.hope i wont let uthong down arhs.. ai zai ai zai
to my anata:
do u noe y i told u i was happy?cos i received a msg frm you. actually i was about to slp aft takin my panadol..bt then u msged. so i didnt wanna go to slp..wanted to sms u more..bt ya. haas. u stopped replyin halfway..and i fell aslp while msgin u..oh well..im jus glad tt u msged askin about my exams.
okaes lahs..enough talk..shall go start on my chem revision le.
jia you jia you.. gogogo (:
PS: ZESHENG AND JACKSON WERE SUPER FUNNY TODAE LAHS!
let your heart out.
okaes i noe tts a bad one. sigh. im bored of hvin to studyin. somehow i jus feel like givin up.y bother studyin so hard? i jus hate studyin.
you make me wonder,in what way i should love you.should i stick close, should i watch from afar? cos u're my only hope.
let your heart out.
leng..u shud come over my hse to stay more often.hees. hahas. actually we only wanted to revise our maths tgt.. and i was oso home alone lahs. kinda scary de u noe?haas. im a "dan xiao gui" *sniggers. then while studyin half way..i asked if she wanna stay over..cos for the first tm ther wasnt any disturbance at home. and it was super quiet. and finally she came to a conclusion.. leng arhs.. thnks for tellin ur mum "she's short short de" wahs!!i really appreciate tt man! -.-~
then we did our work chatted and ate mac!too much mac gave us ulcers lahs.so irritatin! hmmm...3 eerie things happened while we were studyin.
1) pesticide smell
2) male perfume smell
3) cigarette smell.
omg.it was so freakin scary lahs..imagine if i was alone.. cos my cousins didnt come over ytd. and my aunt and grandma went out till 10pm! i wudnt b caught alone at home!!dun wan.
we had dinner at 12plus. then slpt at 5am!! we talked till tt late lahs.. tts y todae cant study proper..so guilty can?bt ther was so much to talked about.. leng made me noe her more. and i guessed she noes me more too. and u can expect the same old topic frm me. u ppl shud noe wat im talkin about eh?sigh.
anyways, heard frm my my cousin she;s attached. oops. i shudnt reveal which cousin lahs.hahas. bt then hope tt u 2 will last. yeps. learn frm me..try and spent amper time with him.. if not.. hmmm. ya. bt hten again i shudnt b encouragin her hors?im super contradictin my words lahs!! the most important thing is u shudnt let tis affect ur studies kaes? jia yous jia yous. anything can talk to me about.yea (: cos we're the bestest cousin! yay! u love me rites? heh. dun shy hors.*HUGGS
im still loving you`
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i told ness and meihui about it. altho he said okaes.bt somehow, im jus afraid.rejection i guess.and meihui made a spot on.sometimes i feel tt we 2 do really hv telepathy huhs?lols.i dun noe how its gonna b..bt i jus wan to see him again..even if it was jus a mere second..i can sae im willin to do anything jus to see his smile again..if only..if only things were still like before huhs?it would hv been a yr. bt the again..back to reality check *CLICK! things arent jus the same anymore.so mayb i shud stop habourin on dumb thoughts.
sometimes i long for someone to b by my side.bt then i cant seem to find someone whom resembles him..im always surrounded by care & concern..bt i jus dun noe how to accept them without forgettin my past. the nicer thay treat me. the guiltier i get.i dun wan to let them down..bt i dun noe wat else i can do..cos he's always on my mind.every little thing i see or do will always link back to him.i remb talkin to yk..and i ended talkin a whole load of hi.in the end yk was like kinda irritated.
well..i used to tot yk would b a good listener.yes,he's still one. bt then he's attached,so i shudnt bother him anymore..i still wanna thnk yk for being ther for me..cos aft sendin him tt msg.he immediately called me..puttin everything he was doin jus to see if i was okaes.thnks buddy.i'll always remb tt. (:
i noe i may not stand a good chance anymore. so shud i still put on a strong front infront of him and the ppl ard me?im jus so tired of hvin to put on a mask everydae.smiling like ther's nth wrong with me..i used to b so carefree ard them.bt wat happened now? life just sucks.
let your heart out.
sigh.im feelin so so so sick now.gonna fall sick any moment!arghs.i hate fallin sick lahs.jus hate being sick.. so dear god,pls let me recover asap..
was talkin to my aunt the other dae about my results..and i jus realised last week tt having a B grade is nth at all.cos its only 60plus marks..still considered very lousy lahs.then she told me tt i've "enlightened"! HAHAS. damn funny lahs.
hmmm.i've jus finished my o'lvl chi.. 1 down 4 more to go..yeps. gonna work doubly hard!another 19 more days to FREEDOM! *yayness! and for now..i think i shudnt b thinkin of any other things except for my o's. bt then..i still cant do it..its jus tt i still think of the past which we once shared..its jus so disappointin.jus when i tot all is well..then it had to happen to me..im still learnin to let it go bit by bit..bt so far,i dun think there's any luck..nvm.
my bdae's in one more mth!i cant wait to celebrate it..bt the prob is,jus how am i gonna celebrate it?
gotta go for now.
ciaos!
learnin to let him go,bit by bit
let your heart out.
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